time for a rock to fall on my head
Posted: April 18, 2005 Filed under: Romgi the Enigma Leave a commentwhich, being translated, means I’m feeling optimistic today. especially about jarom. suddenly it seems like exactly what I’ve been wishing for — someone to talk to, get to know, play the question game and be friends with. it just so happens that we’ve already done those things, a long time ago. and we have a long history together. but it’ll be good to start over, in a way. I remember we tried starting over a couple times before. twice, I suppose. once was senior year while I was dating (and after I broke up with) david, and that worked spectacularly. the second time was after ryan and I broke up — what has it been, a little over two years? yeah, duh…a few months before jarom left on his mission. hello. anyway, that time failed miserably because we weren’t both trying to make it work; there were half-hearted attempts, but they never coincided. when he wanted to be friends I wanted him to leave me alone, and vice versa.
this time, though…this time should work. jarom wouldn’t waste time and paper and postage on me if he didn’t at least want to be friends. more evidence, you say? here, try this on for size:
“…the Lord has put much effort into our relationship. when I have cast it aside, He has reprimanded me. when I embrace it, He has blessed me with wisdom. God does everything with a very specific purpos and has preserved my life, and our friendship.”
citing divine guidance in our relationship seems like a pretty clear statement that he thinks it’s important. awesome. I’m not even gonna touch the “eternal union” part of that particular letter; for now just let me say that things are looking up. mika gets a friend!
also a note about not getting a letter: turns out I mailed my letter the first weekend in march. so it’s been a month and a half without hearing back, and I’ve gone longer than that before. besides, it’s at the end of his mission, and I really will be ok if I don’t hear from him at all until he’s home. no, wait…not true. I’ll be rather concerned that I said something completely out of line that freaked him out, and think he now wants no contact with me at all, and then I’ll be super nervous (again) about him coming back. I think it would be better if I got at least a short note from him. that seems much healthier for my sanity.
I realized that I should probably
…um…I spent half an hour on the phone with kimberlee and now I have no idea what “I should probably” was leading to. that sucks. hm.
wkiskizt: workaholic?
Posted: April 17, 2005 Filed under: All's Well That Ends Well Leave a commentit seems that I’m becoming one. last night I was exhausted and went to bed about 9:30 or so. I had planned to get up at a decent hour this morning (read: before noon), but when the alarm went off at 8:30 it was still too early. however, just as I was about to die or be seriously maimed in my dream — the tires on my car exploded while I was on the freeway and I knew it couldn’t go well after that — mick jr called and woke me up. he and mick sr were in the office, and got the note I left for jr about not finishing things up for monday. so he wanted me to come in. yep, that’s right, I went in to the office at 9:30 this morning and stayed until 1:30. it wasn’t fun. well, ok, I did get to listen to country, loud enough to drown out the music sr was playing in his office. (why does he have a backstreet boys cd?)
went to the grocery store and out for a drive. the new car enjoyed it very much. but no letter from jarom, still.
so apparently shelli called ryan the other day, maybe it was yesterday, just to see how he was. weird, weird. I seem to recall her writing once that…where’d it go…ah, here: “I had to have no contact or more than friendship.” so why keep doing this to herself, and to ryan? who does it help? it’s just making ryan go on again about how all women are succubi. ok, so maybe that isn’t why he’s on that again, but I doubt it makes him believe it any less.
my parents are in monterey this weekend. if kendy is still sick tomorrow, guess what I’m going to do? …go to rockville branch! for sacrament meeting, at least. I dunno if I’d stay for sunday school, and definitely not for rs. but the first hour, sure. who’s impressed?
oh yeah. my total hours at work this week: 52.5. that’s 8 hours of overtime plus 4.5 of double-time. money money money! except the company isn’t really in a position to be paying me extra. well, they asked me to get this done, and it took more than just 8-hr workdays. all I can do now is shrug, and accept (gladly) the paycheck. if enough gets finished I may be able to take friday off, or even thursday and friday. do you know what that means? I could take a trip! unfortunately I think this may be the weekend ryan goes on his hike with his brothers (and brothers-in-law). otherwise — assuming I get new tires by then — I’d totally drive out to utah for the weekend. good times…
Jarom
Mika
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