I'm alive and I'm free, who wouldn't wanna be me?

updates! huzzah!

yep, life is still FABULOUS. at work (which is bleh, by the way) we rotate with cleaning duties — well, on a volunteer basis. and you get $100 for doing it. no taxes, just a check. so I took the duties this week and told jarom I’d split the money with him if he helped me. which means yesterday, and today, and tomorrow we’ve been cleaning for about an hour in the afternoon.

yesterday after we were done, we went to lagoon valley park, and had a wonderfully pleasant walk along the trail. saw a big turtle swimming, two smaller turtles sunning themselves, an egret, some eagles…and some dragonflies. jarom claims he can catch dragonflies, “but not the small ones.” yeah. suuuuure. :) we sat on a picnic table and talked for a while, and semi-almost-cuddled, then as we were heading back to his house he invited me to stay for dinner. afterwards we looked at all his mission pictures, and talked, and talked more with his parents. oh yeah and he said he wants to take me on a DATE! the word finally came up! I told him it doesn’t have to cost money, and in fact the lagoon valley walk could’ve been considered a date, but he maintains that he wants to take me out to dinner and a movie and that sort of thing. which, hey, I’m fine with that. I just love spending time with him. ahhh.

today we were trying to find a mop at work, and finally went in to ask mick sr if there was another somewhere…well, you know how mick sr talks forever; but he’s taken a liking to jarom (me too) and told him to come in tomorrow to talk to mick jr about a job. so that should be fun. when we were done we took a short drive up through gordon valley, just talking. I had a notebook in the backseat with my list of things to accomplish (I know I haven’t posted any lately), so he read that. hopefully he’s trying to think of how we could do some of them like watch a sunset on the beach. that’d be awesome.

anyway, he keeps telling me I look nice and he always gives me these superb hugs and they’re getting longer. even though a part of my brain thinks this whole situation is so…surprising, so how-is-this-really-possible, most of the time it feels…normal. absolutely amazing, but not unexpected or strange.

he likes me :)


iso 9000:2000

work…bleh.

life…beautiful.

mmm he likes me :) we went to rockville branch yesterday, and then to a fireside up in vacaville. took his dad’s car. he tried taking me to lagoon valley park afterwards, but I didn’t have my jacket with me, and it was so windy. too cold. so instead we went for a drive, found a dead end and a pathway, went exploring. in our sunday clothes, me in heels. up a steep hill…discovered a golf course…down the steep hill again, and it honestly was too steep to feel safe climbing down in heels (and too dark to see if I’d be stepping on something very painful if I were barefoot) — so he kept one hand around my waist and the other holding my hand. awesome. when the evening was over I got another brilliant hug and an adorable comment about the problem with hugging me is that it always ends. mmm he likes me :)

the other wonderful spot in my week: I get to start work at 7am now! an extra hour of sleep!! I think the hour from 6-7 is longer than 5-6. no really. don’t ask me to explain, just trust me.

anyway, that’s about everything for now; just thought I’d add some updates…the D word has not come up yet (“dating”), but seeing as he’s only been home 2 weeks — I’m fine with that. there is really no hurry huh? and I think this is going fantastically for now. I wake up with a smile on my face, and that’s all I need at the moment.

ok, bedtime!


“I’ve always wanted … to see the taj mahal, the pillars of karnak. I want to know, not just believe, that the world is round.” -katherine brooke, anne of avonlea (the movie)


pseudo-dtr

jarom came over this evening. we played a crayola-fied version of the question game. it was good times. then we got frostys, talked some more, and he asked if we could head out. about halfway down n texas he said, “take me home an exciting way.” so we drove around for a bit, and finally he said, “I was wondering…what you think/want of me.”

my reply: “jarom, I think you’re amazing. you can argue all you want against it, but you are. I admire you as a person. you always seem to be doing what you know is right, and you’re constantly trying to be better, and you encourage me to be better. to push myself and become more — to be better. I guess what I want of you…well, for now, just to know what you think of me.”

him: “I think you’re amazing. and I missed you a lot.”

so we talked more about our past, and I said I think we’ve grown up enough that we could be the best friends we’ve always had the potential to be. maybe indefinitely best friends, and that’s what I want to see about. he mentioned that senior year, when we sort of had a dating-ish-relationship thing, he liked it, but didn’t feel quite ready for it. and now…he doesn’t feel that hinderance anymore. I asked what he thinks we should do; he said he didn’t know. we were about to his house then so the conversation kind of ended. walked him to his door and got another good hug.

that’s about it. lots of discussion; no direction from here, exactly, although he did say in reply to my question of what he wanted of me, “what I don’t want is drifting apart. so what I do want is togetherness.”

no work tomorrow, mostly! I’ll go in for about an hour. bedtime now.

sweet dreams,
mika.


updates at last!

I actually went back to using pen-and-paper journals after finding that some emotions just can’t be expressed without thoroughly messy handwriting.

so, jarom is back, and doing well. he looks wonderful. he has de-missionary-ized much more than I expected by this point, and things between us are…lovely. still awkward but not in a “he just got back from a mission” way, more of an “I like him and he likes me but we aren’t really saying lots about it quite yet” way. saturday I was at his house for a barbeque for 6 hours, sunday was his homecoming talk, and last night we had ice cream and games with kim and quentin. then jarom asked if I’d like to go for a drive, which ended up being 2 hours. we went up by the dam right by the napa county line, and looked at the stars, and stayed about ten feet apart from each other the whole time. it was actually pretty funny. although a few times he was right there and suddenly holding me and everything else disappeared for a moment. cliche? definitely. but glorious.

then on the drive back we had an “us” sort of discussion, much sooner than I anticipated. one thousand congratulations to me for being honest about how I felt (without scaring him off, even!). looks like in the coming weeks (days?) we’ll start getting more and more comfortable with each other, and figure out are we dating or what, and after that what, etc. mmm.

good times, folks, good times. I’m still sort of floating around, everything is so much better than I thought it could possibly be.

huzzah for being alive!


wahoo, wahoo, wahoo!

so there are many good things today.

1. I got to leave work early and go to lunch at johnny carino’s with kimberlee and kristin. mm good food, and good company. then we ate cheesecake.

2. david is back in the u.s.!! he called me this afternoon and we talked for a bit. I was really, really glad to talk to him. it made my day. better.

3. well, I mentioned to david that he might call jarom, and sort of see how things went. which he did. so later I called and left a message with my number and said if he (jarom) wanted to, he could call me back, otherwise I’d wait until sunday. and he called me back!!!! we talked for maybe 15 minutes, he definitely has an accent. but he invited me to come over tomorrow evening for the barbeque his parents are throwing. it was wonderful. I was very nervous though and felt kinda awkward, like I had tons to say but maybe I should wait and not overwhelm him. but, hopefully we’ll all have a good time tomorrow.

4. ryan is supposed to call me back soon.

5. I got two new pairs of adorable shoes, and summer-ish pajamas, paid for by my mother. huzzah!

6. there are fresh strawberries and cherries in the kitchen. I think they’re even from saechao’s. mmmmm. fruit!

7. I made a new cd this afternoon, with the songs I keep listening to, and it’s very upbeat and sing-along-ish.

8. this one is old but yesterday I went out for a drive, in the rain, with 3eb on as loud as my poor ears could stand it. I was rather hoarse after that.

9. even though it looked completely wrong, I just spelled “hoarse” correctly.

10. I am mika! behold me in all my mikaness.


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