ComfortPosted: May 13, 2013 Filed under: The Story of a Mother 4 Comments
I’m happy to say that the past few days have been incomparably better than Friday was. I expected Mother’s Day to be hard, and it was sad to have that particular reminder of my lost child, but we took flowers to Christian’s grave and I didn’t struggle with emotion while we were there. I was glad to be able to visit (it was my first time back since the burial), and I felt comforted knowing we can go back often. I also started keeping a journal of letters to Christian, which I think will be helpful for me to express my thoughts and feelings a little more intimately than I do here.
We were also able to pick up the pictures from Christian’s birth. Just days ago I think they would have been too hard for me to look at, but because of how much better I’ve felt, I really enjoyed getting them. These were taken by Heather Ellis, who worked with us as part of Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep.
He really does look just like a doll! So little! I love the hands pictures when Christian has a finger grasped with his itty, bitty hand. So precious. It melts my heart!
The picture of Christian with both of you hands with wedding rings on reminds me of the importance of families being together forever. I am saddened that you have to be apart for the time being but find hope in the fact that won’t always be the case.
Beautiful pictures. Thank you for sharing such tender moments.
My favorite is the 6th one down. It shows all the solemnity, tenderness and heart combined with ache.