I dream of…Something
Posted: July 15, 2008 Filed under: Of Mice and Men 6 CommentsSo, some people have lucid dreams – meaning they’re aware that they are dreaming. I experience nothing of the sort. My dreams are incredibly vivid and believable, no matter how irrational or implausible the events are. After this dream woke me up today, I went around the house locking doors and making sure the window blinds were all pulled down, my heart pounding the whole time. Here it is:
I was watching out the front window of my parents’ house for a friend who would be riding by on a bike. At some point while I watched, I was no longer in the house but in a minivan across the street. I sat in the front passenger seat; three or four kids were in the back (my kids, or nieces and nephews). My dad was standing outside the van. A lot of people were passing by, but I didn’t really pay attention to them until several scruffy men with sunglasses approached. I knew immediately (it’s a dream, I don’t know how) that they had some advanced weaponry, mostly guns, and that I needed to hide. I figured that I’d be killed or harmed if they saw me. So I ducked down and tried my best to fit in the little space under the dashboard.
Of course, I was too big. The leader of the group came right over to my window and peered in, and there was no way to get out of his view. Instead I tried desperately to push the “Lock Doors” button – but, unfortunately, the sliding door between the kids and my dad was open. My panic and fear were intense. We were all going to die, I was sure.
Instead of killing us, though, the bad guys did an elaborate switcheroo, in that they created a house exactly like my parents’ house – down to every last piece of clothing and crack in the wall – that they would put all of us in, to guard us. We’d be locked in the house, but not ever realize it wasn’t really our house. I did realize it, however; I may have listened to them talking or seen them make the house myself, but I somehow knew this was a fake house. And suddenly I was inside it, alone, and everyone else was playing in the front yard. Being watched.
There was no way to escape, and nowhere to hide. I looked outside as I had in the beginning, and saw Krista. She managed to come inside – probably through the front door, since the captors wanted me to think everything was normal. Krista cheerily remarked that the house looked rather nice today; my eyes welled up with tears. I had to get out somehow. In the lowest whisper possible, I explained that the men were keeping me here, and I needed to find a way of getting help. She replied that it would be best if we got well away from the house before calling 911, so that if the men didn’t notice I was gone, they also wouldn’t hear me talking on the phone to the police.
While we were talking, the dream changed a little so that Krista was now also stuck in the house, but she was luckily confident and level-headed (as opposed to my utter fear and panic). She reminded me again of the two hiding spots in the house where you could be unseen from any window, and then said she had a plan. She knew what kind of guns the men had, and in fact had made a report to the police board about the guns recently. (How this pertained to the story, I’m not sure. But it happened.) Our best solution was to be helicoptered out of there through the window in my dad’s room. Make sense? No, of course not. I thought we were sneaking out.
And wait until you hear just how we were going to be rescued. Out of nowhere, Krista pulled two forks; she explained that she’d been in contact with the police before and they knew her secret sign for “Get me out of here ASAP.” She ran the prongs of one fork down the wall right next to the window, making ruts in the paint. I did the same on my side of the window. Almost immediately, two forks appeared poking through the corners of the window blinds, as if someone were holding them from outside. “There they are!” Krista said. “Now we just grab onto these forks and they’ll helicopter us out of here.”
This was not the happy ending I had hoped for. Despite the fact that Krista had gone over this with the police, there was no way of knowing if the people holding the forks were in fact rescuers or the captors. Lifting or peeking through the blinds probably would have done it, but I was paralyzed by fear. Krista grabbed onto the fork on her side…
…and I woke up.
Some things I’d like to point out:
(1) my dreams switch situations or settings frequently, without any continuity errors. House to minivan and back to house did not bother me.
(2) You wouldn’t believe how many of my dreams and nightmares center on trying to escape from a bad guy by shutting or locking a door, closing a window, etc., and for whatever reason, I can’t get it done. Usually the reason is that I don’t have enough time before the bad guy is able to stick his hand or foot in the opening, preventing me from reaching safety. And I usually wake up after that.
(3) I did actually find – in real life – the two places in my parents’ house where you could hide and not be seen, even if all the curtains were up. I have no idea how Krista knew them in this dream.
(4) As I’m sure is common, paralyzing fear becomes my downfall in many a dream. It is so real that even after I wake up and realize none of it was real, I have trouble talking coherently (more so than when I just wake up groggy).
(5) Alright, this may not sound scary to you at all, but honestly – it was terrifying. When I tell the Romgi my bad dreams, he keeps waiting for the frightening part. I think most of the terror comes from the feeling more than any actual events in the dream. Seriously, though – scary. Way scary.
Readers, what do you think? Is there some hidden meaning in the dream? Or was it just a dream?
Best…Life…Ever
Posted: July 11, 2008 Filed under: James and the Giant Peach 2 CommentsI’m not joking, I really think I might have the best life EVER.
For the last two weeks I’ve been desperately craving sushi…like I must have it, I need it badly. Yesterday for lunch the Romgi took me to get sushi at Demae downtown! I’m not into the raw fish thing, so I had teriyaki chicken rolls and hana rolls (avocado and shrimp tempura). A-ma-zing. Absolutely delicious. It was exactly what I wanted, so perfectly shaped into little circles of joy. And even though we got it to go, Demae still gave me the plastic grass you get on your plate! (Ok, it’s not a big deal, I know, and probably a waste of plastic; still, it was nice to be appreciated or whatever.)
Thanks husband!!
P.S. The only problem now: I want more. So if you ever need to buy me a treat…!
Radio
Posted: July 10, 2008 Filed under: All's Well That Ends Well 2 CommentsSometimes my brain is like a radio with a five-year-old as the DJ. If it finds a song it likes, repeat indefinitely; if I suddenly switch topics or thought trains, my mental background music switches just as suddenly. Last night as I was trying to sleep, for example, I had a long loop of Taylor Swift’s “Should’ve Said No,” followed by Coldplay’s “Viva la Vida” when I tried finding a slightly mellower song (did that work? Not really sure). And then for good measure my DJ randomly tossed in a Chris Brown song whose name I don’t know. When enough was enough, I snuck out to grab the Romgi’s Zune. A few nights ago I made a playlist specifically for times like these.
Unfortunately, most of the songs I selected featured mental commentary by my DJ. They were nostalgic and full of memories, and the DJ even tried narrating a blog entry about the playlist for me. In an effort to sleep, I did my best to ignore the DJ, although for a five-year-old she writes pretty well. So I just have one song to tell you about, instead of the 30 whose significance was nicely laid out for me last night.

I did ballet when I was growing up. (Surprise!) From the time I was 5 until I was about 15, I performed in The Nutcracker every year – usually as a Bon Bon but, as I got a tiny bit taller, sometimes in another role. We had rehearsals for Act II every Saturday, all Saturday from about August until December. Without a doubt my favorite part was watching the Pas de Deux with the Sugar Plum Fairy and her…whatever his title is. The music is maybe the most emotionally-charged EVER. (I really mean that.)
A few years ago, I went with some friends to see The Nutcracker at Christmastime. We didn’t have very good seats (that’s what $10 will get you), so the majority of the ballet was just kind of “Isn’t it fun to be here?” more than “These dancers are amazing!” But when it got to the pas de deux, it didn’t matter that I couldn’t see exactly what the dancers were doing. I could feel it in the music. Honestly, you should try to find it online and listen to it. The pose above is how the song ends. Hearing the music makes me feel wistful, like I was born to dance the pas de deux (in another life where I kept doing ballet through my sulky teenage years).
So instead of falling immediately asleep when I turned on the Zune, I was treated to an amazing combination of music and memory – interrupted at times by my DJ, of course, but I drifted off eventually…and dreamed of ballet.
