The Dark Wind

by Tony Hillerman | 336 pgs, published 1982darkwind

More Hillerman, not much to add. Good book that made no lasting impact on my life.

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Listening Woman

by Tony Hillerman | 320 pgs, published 1978listeningwoman

I might have read this when I was younger, but I didn’t remember the plot at all. Not much to say except it’s typical Hillerman – so I enjoyed the mystery and the characters (though Leaphorn and Chee together make the best stories).

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Leadership and Self-Deception

by the Arbinger Institute | 207 pgs, published 2002leadership

This is the original book that Anatomy of Peace is a companion to. I thought maybe it would explain some of the concepts in a new way, and while it did give some better examples, I definitely prefer Anatomy of Peace.

I also think the title doesn’t fit. The gist is that whenever there’s a problem, we deceive ourselves that someone else is the cause and ignore the possibility that our behavior or way of being could be at least part of the problem. It’s much more workplace-oriented than Anatomy of Peace, which may be one reason I didn’t care for it as much.

So skip this and please, please pick up Anatomy of Peace if you haven’t already.

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Grump

I’m in an excessively foul mood this morning. I blame hormones and lack of sleep. Around 3am, the dog started barking – presumably because Evan was opening our door. I thought the dog needed to go out, so I was searching for shoes in the dark and telling Evan to go back to bed. As I walked outside I could hear Evan crying in his room and told myself I’d take care of him when the dog was done. When I got back in, Evan was asleep, but June had woken up.

Lately June has been waking up most nights. If I’m lucky, she just wants to find the tag on her blanket or get a drink refill, but more often she wants to come to bed with me. I don’t have the best judgment in the middle of the night, so I brought her to my room once a little while ago and now it’s The Thing To Be Done, in her eyes. Last night I was so grouchy and so tired that I told her I wouldn’t pick her up or take her to my bed, which only made things worse. I stormed back to my room, where the dog wanted to follow me and jump up on the bed. No! My space! Let me have my sleep!!

June cried for quite a while. I unplugged the monitor and eventually went back to sleep.

Jarom, as always, dealt with the kids when morning finally came around. He’s a hero for letting me stay in bed shirking my parental responsibilities, especially when I know my grouching and yelling last night kept him from getting a good night’s rest. Unfortunately, there comes a time when he has to leave for work. I bet today he was glad to go – I wouldn’t want to spend the day around me! The kids keep fussing at me and whining when they say my name and it DRIVES ME CRAZY. I’m so short on patience right now.

On top of that, I haven’t had the focus or energy to make a grocery list, and we’re down to one car, so I can’t go shopping anyway. Things I can eat for breakfast: bread, an egg (if I clean up some of the kitchen to cook and eat with), banana. Those are mostly my lunch options too. Hunger doesn’t help my mood at all!

I’d hoped writing this would improve my outlook. I do feel slightly less grouchy, but now I’m extra tired. Maybe I can trust the kids to not destroy the house while I try to nap?

Ha.