A brief update on feelings

Feelings are dumb.

This week we’ve started looking for a replacement car, since my sweet-but-ugly Suzuki was totaled in November. I went with Jarom to a dealer on Tuesday. We liked the car we drove, but the dealer wasn’t willing to negotiate price, which was disappointing. On the way home the following feelings happened:

Sad. I really wanted that car!
Grouchy. Car dealer, you are dumb.
Frustrated. I hate car shopping. Jarom is now in charge of finding me a car.
Overwhelmed. Last year our car died and our baby died. Why can’t our lives be full of good things? Why do crappy things happen to us?
Bitter. It sucks that Christian died! It sucks a lot! It’s so stupid!
Sad. My baby died. It’s so sad.
Despair. I just want to eat cookies and cry instead of making dinner. But I also don’t want to be lumpy-shaped and my clothes don’t fit and it’s just not fair that Christian died AND I gained a bunch of weight.

It was not a fun drive home. Yeah, I cried. No, it wasn’t really about the car. Thankfully, Jarom is patient and understanding and nice – and he knows when I just want to be left alone with my misery. Eventually I came out of it (though I didn’t end up eating cookies or making dinner), and stopped having those feelings.

Because feelings are dumb.


The Sorting Hat

I can’t be the only one who does this, right?

Jarom and I love to play Sorting Hat – which is, to figure out which Hogwarts house our friends and family would be sorted into. It’s best if you make an initial sorting when you first meet someone and then revisit your guess once you’ve gotten to know them better.

Recently I started reading Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone to Evan at bedtime. June was jealous so I’m also reading it to her, separately. Today I’m working on a crochet project while I watch the first Harry Potter movie.

My own assessment of myself is that I’d be in Ravenclaw. On days when I feel blah, I tell Jarom I’d definitely be in Hufflepuff, but he says I’m clever enough to be Ravenclaw. And good company there with Luna, right?

Where do you put yourself? Do you agree that I’d be Ravenclaw?


Giveaway!

In honor of happy holidays and such, I’m giving away TWO copies of Spark: A Creative Anthology, Volume III. It is, of course, the volume in which my story about Christian appears. But don’t enter for that alone – the volume is also full of well-written stories and poems. You’ll be glad to get a copy.

It is lusciously creamy, both in color and texture. You want it.

It is lusciously creamy, both in color and texture. You want it.

Might I suggest that, in the event that you aren’t a winner here, you head on over to purchase it and/or either of the first two volumes?

Alright, so. The giveaway.

To enter, leave a comment on this post telling me how you let people know that they’re meaningful to you. It could be something simple like saying “I love you” often or buying their favorite snack as a surprise (thank you, Jarom, for Slim Jims), or something big like . . . well, you’ll have to come up with it.

You can enter a second time by emailing a link to my blog to someone who hasn’t read it yet. Leave a comment telling me that you did so. On your honor, people.

You can enter a third time by buying Volume I or Volume II – a print copy or the ebook – and leaving a comment telling me that you did so. Please also email me a copy of your purchase confirmation.

Disclaimer: my siblings, as well as Jarom’s immediate family, are not qualified to enter. We have a copy to give you!

You have until midnight MST on Monday, December 16 to enter. I’ll choose two winners at random and announce them here on the blog on December 17. I will also email the winners, so please make sure you leave a valid email address with your entry (it won’t be displayed publicly).

Good luck!